冷冷的风, 沉沉的心。。。。。

总觉得自己并没有打从心第的开心，也不知为何事在烦恼着.
真不喜欢现在的自己呀， 需要改变可我又有心力不足, 懒懒散散的，真讨厌！
年底了, 有好多好多没完成的任务还真令人头痛不安的，我必须加油认真点对吧？

正听着林峰与永儿合唱的"明天以后”， 还蛮伤感， 越听心情就越黑暗。

明天以后 (国语版)(林峯&泳儿)
作曲：伍仲衡/冯颖琪 填词：伍仲衡/冯颖琪 改编词：姜忆萱
泳:在你的记忆里面有一个我 在你最痛苦的时候陪你度过 难过过了天晴朗了我就走 峯:你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的梦 在你的面前我不必保留 还来不及对你说迟到的我的心动 泳:你的好你的坏 峯:我的脾气你最懂 泳:我不要你来心疼我 峯:我不要你离开我 合:明天的以后我们会懂 失恋的挫折让人变更成熟 泳:我对你感觉胜过爱情 峯:因为有你 给我勇气给我用不完的运气 其实也想好好爱你 泳:只怕到最后不小心让你伤心 峯:我不怕会伤心 合:对不起我对你 再好再亲密都不能在一起 峯:最后看你在别人怀里 泳:有天我会找到我的唯一 峯:我并不是你的唯一 合:还微笑祝福你 峯:你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的梦 在你的面前我不必保留 泳:我从来没对你说压抑的我的心动 峯:我的好我的坏我的脾气你最懂 泳:我不要你来心疼我 合:明天的以后我们会懂 失恋的挫折让人变更成熟 泳:我对你感觉胜过爱情 峯:因为有你 给我勇气给我用不完的运气 其实也想好好爱你 泳:只怕到最后不小心让你伤心 峯:我不怕会伤心 合:对不起我对你 再好再亲密都不能在一起 峯:最后看你在别人怀里 泳:有天我会找到我的唯一 峯:我并不是你的唯一 合:还微笑祝福你 泳:爱情总让人折磨 峯:所以我们才选择 合:做比情人更好的朋友 泳:我对你感觉胜过爱情 峯:因为有你 给我勇气给我用不完的运气 其实也想好好爱你 泳:只怕到最后不小心让你伤心 峯:我不怕会伤心 合:对不起我对你 再好再亲密都不能在一起 峯:最后看你在别人怀里 泳:有天我会找到我的唯一 峯:我并不是你的唯一 合:还微笑祝福你

ｈｍｍｍ。。。我也，几时才会找到我的唯一呢？不想不想啦。。。 我在干嘛？！哈。。。。

不说了, 我要去整理我的２０１０小记事薄了！晚安！

MOvies Recently

Recently, I have watched quite a few movies via SQ. Thanks to my company =P
Some of my tots:

1) The sister's keeper. Super damn touching!!!! initially when the show started I tot it was just some crapy US show but, in fact it was very touching as it talked about Cancer(illness) & family Rs etc.

Basically I cried from the beginning of the show till the end. If not wrong it's about 90 mins? I cried for more than an hr, honestly! Wondering if the airstewardress tot I'm Siao. Ha.

The parent decided to make another baby in order to help to "cure" the elder sister who's sick. So the little gal came to "help" the sister. However, one day when the big sister got sick & needed transplant, the little sister filed for "personal protection" that she can make her own decision to NOT help the sister anymore.
Of course, then the show went on to how the mother fought with the lawyer & how the spent the rest of the days 2gether... Anyway, in the end, the big sister died eventually and true enough, the little sister got the "protection". But it's actually instruction from the big sister.. she taught the little gal to do/say those things just because she (big sister) noes that she'll die n perhaps giving up?

The show showed us how the Mother fought bravely/lonely as a mother, and not giving up till the very last moment.. and perhaps cause I could relate myself to the situation so really cried like nothing!!! Worth watching!

2) The Time Traveler's wife.
Well, well, romantic love gal gal story but.. i think it's cool because the wife is really brave and courageous enough to "handle" such hubby, who will just blink n gone & god knows when he'll return and at what age? I think the hubby worst as he can NV control such travelling & i cannot imagine myself been naked everytime i "blink".. Gosh.. That's soooo crazy & it's kind of sweet as in the end they managed to have a bb.. after many many tries.. cos the bb can telepot oso... so the wife miscarriage many many times.. Sad right? ERm.. This show is basically following thru the story, got acting & interesting storyline. Only one sad part when he's going to die as he had foreseen & was told by the future daughter... so it's the departing moment btw wife & gal.. Argh...

3) The ugly truth...
Erm. nothing fantastic but... it talks about this Capable woman who is looking for perfect guy n she's tooo Boring that she couldnt find any guys who fall for her (Of course, in the end the main lead guy fell for her.. ha).. so the guy helped her to fine tuned to the every-guy-desire-sort-of-gal, and she got the guy she liked but realises that she has fell for the main guy already.. anyway,
In summary, it says about how gal should "understand" guy that they are just simple n they dun think soooo much as gal and some key things like: dun like girls to take charge, like gals to dress themself... & 1 funnie point is that the guy said, girls has to fake orgs. as it's always better than NO orgs. hahah.. & For girl side, maybe has to be realistic that there is NO perfect guy available... Some blunt (Swear alot & horny dialogs) funnie show to laugh when u have nothing better to do..

4) Another upcoming movie that i've yet to watch.. I am attracted by the movie critics written by Lian He Zao Bao on the 30th Oct. : 《第十四道》 Caroline
http://www.zaobao.com/fk/fk091030_015_1.shtml:
Some abstruct:

《第》中卡罗兰的经历其实也可以是成年人空虚心灵的写照，人常抱怨自己的生活，忽略现实中能构成幸福的琐事。人爱以自己为中心，例如《第》中的卡罗兰总是看不到力不从心的父母，对他们有诸多的不满，不过秘道父母要给她“一对纽扣”眼所带来的刺激，她才重新发现以前没有注意到的幸福和美好。幸福，原来就是那么的简单，也只有愿意放弃一部分自我，视野才更加的广阔，才能看到真实。

That's all folks ~

i should/could have done better.....

Harlos. Well, pls pardon me as the previous blog I wrote in a "Venting" out tone as I was in discussion of those topic with a friend who doesnt share the same tots. =P
Well, after spending sometime to reflect about the situation, I felt I was abit too subjective and I must be a little too proud & think too much of myself. =P

Last week, hmmm...should be not that good as Friday, when I was conducting the meeting, I felt not much people really concentrate on listenin to me & kind of like I'm doing a bad job. =(
And, I think sometimes I'm really too proud of myself.. Argh.. I have & must improve... I need to find ways to bring myself up another level & do a better job.. I'm a leo.. must show my leoleo power!!!

Then as for my driving lesson process..Sat had a better drive but Sun, back to scolding day again. Teacher commented on my slow-ness.. 手慢脚慢。。 not concentrated at driving. Asked me turn left, i signal right. Asked me vertical parking, i do paralle parking. Asked me straighten i more slanted. Haiz... =( When then i can really do a better/good driving!!! so angry with myself... !!!!

Then sat, went prawning for the first time. Everything went well quite nicely but just a little 小插曲，where daddy made mammy angry. Cut long story short, it's just 2 person characteristics really cannot match and they must know when to shut up, or when to talk.. it's really something very not easy.. ha.. communciation brokedown for them & I dun think they can ever fix it... Well... tt's something i really cant help to change but in other areas ba... I'll kanbate de.. What i can help i'll help..

Argh.. so broke ... i'm going to be broke at least another 2-3 yrs.ha.. unless my Boss raise my PAY or i get better pay's job.. otherwise, i'm going to be.. eat durian oso gotta think about my budget/sob.

Yest went to Yongxuan place & kind of like it, the 5room flat has very big living room space!! i like i like & next time i wanna my home simple sweet n comfy!!! & ... i have one idea for my wedding car.. i wanna put one row of flowers decoration at the windscreen there.. it's going to be very romantic~~ Aroohhh... grinz.. got that idea from one pic from YX's wedding photo.. Oh.. Congrats to Mr & Mrs YX cos... they are going 2 have a bb in 2010 Feb. bb boy.. Grinz. Happy!!!

Also went to sk's place & we nv talked. Take it as I'm the bad n bo xin one ba.. well... it's funnie things turned out this way, & my skin is toooo thin somehow.. perhaps someday, when i boil more courage, i'll approach him ba... Great seeing ahya & carried her.. little pie.. So cute with her long hair and short short fringe!! As for bb boy, didnt really see him much but he does cries alot =P.

Yest went swiming before visiting YX. has just few laps swimming, but shiock..
I've so many things not done yet.. & i wanna go kTv sing song.. my throat itchy to shout it out.. =P

Okay.. enough crapping. going to search where to book for makan on coming sun for dad & sister bdae celebrations. See ya~

你好吗？

A) It has been 6mths since the case happened, and just msn to asked if you are OK? & you replied Fine. So I guess you're alright and moving forward yeah, then I should not be worrying too much right? Anyway, all the best to you!!

B) Changed my hairstyle, permed to make it big wave, trying my best to maintain so as to keep it longer. =) But then i find my hair messy and not Wavy enough *Bleah*
Face, still as much pimples and geez, yest spend $$$ again. Sob.. wondering when could i get rid of this shit? Anyway, Swear to myself, to dum n anyone, this will be the last time cos after signing these, i'll be able to clear my existing other things... anyway, i really already stopped buying anymore of their recommendations. So, this one is only to sign for the basica course. quite sad cos $$ is enough to buy 2 laptops? A new fridge? or even many many dresses? haiz.

c) Went SIC last week and extended one day trip. Enjoyed despite it's a rushing schedule because we have planned to visit 5 temples but in the end only 3. But good enough la cos it's really beautiful and one of the temple i went, it's really relaxing. Makes one feel like to go there to sit and throw all trouble away and "silent sit" there... really.. & Sunshine after the rain, we saw nice rainbow!!!! Didnt take many photos because i wanted to enjoy the scenery, cos anyway, the rest are taking and sometimes i just wonder take soooo many pics for what? cos at the end, it would be just repeitative and you would have wasted your time taking photos and forgot to enjoy there..

d) work... i'm not the best nor i'm very good. it's just pple ard me dun show that they are that capable or show their power, tt's why i'm in the lead.. why dun they pick up their fighting sprit? like fireman? or those rescue team? they know chance slim but still try to put out fire or save the remaining?? they try didn't they? I think it's just the objective/mission/vision is lacking. if one really think good for the company, they will be more active and somethings just wont get immediate effect wont it? like planting a plant to grow into trees? Who would say u good, diligent to water the plant daily? letting it grow well w/o bugs? pple would only thumbs up when ur tress is 100yrs old.. or when ur trees big enough to shelter them during raining days or help to reduce the C02? At the end of the day i would prefer to think that it's personality lor.. if your those with more fighting spirit, you'll do more, if you're w/o, no matter how pple push u.. you'll not move... so.. really hard.. n lacking a good motivator perhaps n unfortunately i'm not doing a good job at that cos i still lacks alot of skills... just pondering why pple are like that?? cos i dun think i'm one of them YET...

e) personality and characteristics..

f) I'm tired now.. eyes closing... zzZzz
*Share my pics again when i have time.. sry for my boring/grumpy post.. Zzzz

Seems like I forgot something.....

Just realized that saying sooooooo much, I've not Apologize for my sinful action...
对不起！

是对是错，因该不因该，你要怎麽说?!?!? 我需要勇气。。。。。

Yesterday.....
I woke up in the morning been scared by a huge cockroach but luckily my brave brother and mammy were around to help me get rid of it so that I could prepare for work/day. (Perhaps it’s an indication of how my day will be?!?)

Work wise, I took the opportunity to organize our Tons of catalogues collected from various trade show and those donkey year's ago newsletters, so I almost spent whole day doing those sorting and organizing so I did not "work" much =P Was still so YaYa about it =P

Then the night I went to see doct for follow-up..... All it started quite well... but things changed at a later stage where I did something sinful... Haiz.. It aint proud ... but I did it. And could it be fated to let me see those things??

The first feeling I felt was: I felt like a fool.. ha... really...
Because at one side I’m confused, vexed about the feelings, the other side actually those things happened.... Know what I'm saying? Then I was thinking: What am I to you?? What do you treat me as?? I've no idea... or maybe just too sad to think about it..

..... .... ... .. .

I used to believe in this & I still do:
我不希望你选我是因为，只有我这棵树。 我希望你是在整个森林里选择的那颗唯一的树。。。。。
And now perhaps to add on:
我也希望你选我是因为打从心底的爱我，而非因为其他树不接受你，所以你才回头来要我。选择放弃的时候是一次伤害，请不要再回来伤我多一次。。。。。

what's wrong with me??!!?

One week has past and looking forward for 2morrow and the week because..... my boss is not in the office and he'll be away until next Mon!!!!! Yeah... =P

Sighz... kind of vexed... because.. I dunoe what I'm feeling and how to deal with it. Again, dunoe if I think-ed to much or am I doing the right thing by not "doing" it? Ha.... hmmm... I oso dunoe.. Sianz.

Whahah.. kind of realised that I'm still the me... hahaha.. =p Does it says anything when I still get jealous over my Ex seeing/meeting up alone with the "GAL" i always do not like in the relationship? Taking photos somemore!?!?! Luckily I didnt see those pictures, otherwise I think I'd be more vexed.. Ha. Why?.. it only irks me for a while though, yest night n this morning. Perhaps it's just so used to it?.. anyway.. it linked to makes me think that...

I'm a Leo and by nature, it's those who eats lots of vinegar sort.. so ... it's naturally that I feel this way and.. i wish i can do it in future as in... my "future" can accepts it.. and i'll be okay if he's a lttle Jealousy... ha.. *Grinz* afterall... i wish to play the role of littlewoman who could listens to he's NO this NO that... ha... well, sometimes LOVE is not rational isnt it?

Argh... n yet on the other hand... my brain is thinking n thinking n thinking... what should i do? should not do? or feel? or etc? VEXED... and i'm confused... really... sighz..

Argh.. me wanna go ZZzz liao..不想了不想了！！！！！

Today

Whahahaha.. just finished watching the 1hrs 命中注定我爱你 @ channel U。。。。
Hmmm.. today is kind of sad because it's our lady boss LPV's last day in MCS. Somehow, 好想哭喔。。。。cos afterall, spending spending 3.5yrs 2gether, and starting tomorrow will be w/o her.. No matter what, will over it.. =) just somehow, it brings back my memories of some sad things.. and it just made me sad-er =(

Argh... wondering, when would be my turn to venture out?
Really admired PV's courage and Moo's determination... Say go just go.. Argh.. 帅！！！！！

Today wake up very early 5am to do my work (forecast) so very slpy now. Going to pack my things n go ZzzzZzz..

Have a great night!! Oh.. btw today is Low Bah & YanYan birthday!!! so Happie birthday and hope u 2 had a great great day!!!!

zZZzZzz

Hmmm... Yest spent the sunny saturday by picking out the photos (May Tw trip with mammy) to develop and listened to Jay's music... Oh.... I fell in love again~~ Ha.. His musics are soooooo good and nice!!! But somehow, either the disc or my player's prob. It got stucked so I turn it off to watch TV instead. Tt's about it for my yesterday.

Today.. Well.. had my 6th driving lesson and again, today seems extra more mistake such as forgotting to steer back, steer too much and too slow.. very much regarding my speed of reaction.. Slow!! for the next lesson, I must go warm up first to flex my muscles so I could perhaps better =) & today instead of teacher, I drove back to my busstop. *Grinz*

There's 2 particular articles that I came across in the Chinese Newspaper today:

a) 自闭儿, an interview with the mammy of a little boy suffering from this at the age of 2. How the mammy went through it and now, finally back on track and she's sharing her experience by writting a book. In the papers, it mentioned that she felt like giving up but in the end, she couldnt as the boy needs her... Also mentioned that, if we see some kids misbehave in the public, dun jump straight to saying the parents did not do a good job in teaching the kids, cos "problem" kids just couldnt control themselves.. So we must be more forgiving!!!

this made me think about myself.. hmmm.. perhaps we really need to be more forgiving and look at a bigger pic, do not just just straight to perception and assumption....

b) There's a short writting about success and failure. The author highlighted that city pple has objectives/aims that to them, achieveing it is the result and if we cannot achieve, then it's called failure and therefore eventually pple would give up themselves if they have fail too much times and w/o handling it good. In the process of wanting to achieve the goal, we tend to set unrealistic aims and things to do, therefore when we fail, the setback (mentally) is hugh. However, he thinks that enjoying the process is the most important thing and worth pple thinking about it.

Hmm ... i think that should be the way 2... reflected the way i handled things at work and how i set my goals at work... Hmmmm... I think really true for city pple, cos we are "programmed" in this way, so we really forget to enjoy process... must reflect... reflect...

Okie. tonight be going for family dinner for celebrating of August babies. Be going to eat my creamy Crab!!!!! Ciao~

Up & Down & Down & Up & Up & Down .....

Argh... Do not know how I have past my week, feeling still so aimless in my life.....

Yet to find my Mr Green, yet to leave my current job for something that I really like, yet to ...... alot of things la...

Hmmm. Really, have been saying so long to get the "old" me back, perhaps I forgot that as days go by, I'm could no longer be the old me, as day by day, I'm more complicated and gained one-day-older fact. So, I should not be looking back but forward.. creating a new me? Hmmm...

My sister who saw me on Monday/tue commented that I still looked so gloomy and sad... asked if it was to do with my Him.. Well... Am I? Do i still looked like someone has owed me 1mil dollars (what my mammy always claimed =P) ?? Argh... I wanna smile more u know, I wanna be happy u know? I am/want to be a bright smiley gal u know? What's happening to me????? Seems like I LOST myself sooooo far behind.. this is soooo Not good. I've to work it out!!!

我是怎么了？！

perhaps, even from the photo I took reflected my feelings.... Hmmm....

quiz "Who is your lifetime match?" with the result They are born between ....

Arh... the first try i tried this quiz it gave this reply, couldnt save it on FB in time,.. n i rem it's Nov - Dec timing oso.. but ... somehow 2nd advise is diff... c( - . - )o hahaha...

1st try:
People sometimes find you cold and reserved. They don't know you well enough though because in reality you're warm and passionate with a sensitivity to nature and natural beauty. But you hide your feelings. You're a natural worrier and as soon as you fall in love, you're afraid of being deserted. It's this fear that too often prevents you from committing or doing what feels right deep down: for example, leaving a someone you love through fear of theim abandoning you one day. But over time, you gain confidence in yourself and your relationships have a better chance of lasting. Hidden agendas don't exist with you pair, as you both expect honesty and loyalty from one another no matter how brutal it may be. You complete one another, with these people you are able to have an intellectual debate or those deep intellectual conversations which you crave. The sexual chemistry between you to will last a lifetime and you only improve with age. They respect your reserved nature as they are a big believer in privacy themselves and will allow you to naturally come out of your shell. Finally, you would have met someone who matches your stamina in and out of the bedroom...but not just in the bedroom of course. They will go the distance with you. Just listen to your heart more instead of doing the most sensible thing all the time. Listen with your heart.

2nd try
They are born between november 23rd - December 21st
At first, it’s hard not to like you with your open hearted, friendly ways. You will often enter a room as a radiant presence that causes everyone to take notice, and are skilled at “working” a crowd for best effect. As a friend, you have a knack for mining a buried dream, polishing it to a shine again, and making anything seem possible. You both have flaming passions, and a sense that life is an adventure to be celebrated. Dating involves play and possibly travel, with these kinds of people will draw you to the outdoors and soon both of you are glowing with fresh fire in the cheeks. Falling in love will make you both feel even more alive. The athletic edge will stir you out of laziness, and into the game of pleasure.

hmmmmmm?....

过的好吗？

Today is your birthday Mr TanT.Y, here wishing you a enjoyable day and may all the bad lucks be washed away by the good day! I don't have the courage to sms/msg you, just hope that you can be better and move on! Jia you!

Things happend, that none of us can change and do you know, that sometimes the pain will just flash across my mind/heart and it just aches and I'll be feeling sad and painful for what happened. Anyway, it just shows that She's not the one, so really hope that you can find someone much better and worth. Just wish that everything would be better... I really wish that... =)

Ok. Smile.. And let's move on.. here by sharing my little princess updates..

Last friday when to kiddy palace with her Mammy and granny... Cute little gal knows how to kiss popo and how at how happy she has made her granny? Well, of course I'm jealous but... hey, she knows how to kiss me as well.. heee.. *grinz* Happy.. Everyday seeing her just make my day!!! Baby baby~~ Yi yi loves u.. Muackz!!!!

一隻鞋需要一隻鞋

一隻鞋需要一隻鞋

一個老人在行駛的火車上
不小心從窗口把剛買的新鞋弄掉了一隻
周圍的人都為他婉惜
不料那老人立即把第二隻鞋也從窗口扔了出去
讓人大吃一驚

老人解釋道
這一隻鞋
無論多麼昂貴
對我來說也沒有用了
如果有誰撿到一雙鞋
說不定還能穿呢

顯然
老人的行為
已有了價值判斷
與其抱殘守缺，不如斷然放棄
我們都有過
某種重要的東西
失去的事
且大都在心理上
投下了陰影

究其原因
就是我們並沒有調整心態
去面對失去
沒有從心理上
承認失去
總是沉湎於已經不存在的東西

事實上
與其為失去的而懊惱
不如正視現實
換一個角度
想問題
也許你失去的
正是他人應該得到的

普希金在一首詩中寫道
“一切都是暫時的，一切都會消逝；
讓失去的變為可愛."

有時
失去不一定是憂傷
而是成為一種美麗
失去不一定是損失
也可能是奉獻
只要我們抱著積極樂觀的心態
失去也會變為可愛。

很多人都在選擇及猶豫中
錯過許多機會
其實大膽的去尋找事實真象
才能有所收穫

每个人的pattern都不同....

Few days ago, when I tried to communicate with my Bro with regards to his new/first job, we kind of get into dispute and I realised that he's just one stubborn Pig. Hmmmm guess we all have it in our blood which makes us all unique and has our own thinking. I'm just one stubborn OX =P .. Anyway.. so this is what came to my mind...

Everyone is just so different and special in their own way, I guess.

Anyway, brother has finally got his first job, so wishing him the best and not be bullied by others. I've been new bird and has been training new colleuages, seen them came n left, worked with them and observed every single one's style and such.. Ha.. so guess this time round, I'm nicer to the new comers, as in less harshness, ha.. must 积some德, so other pple wont bully the ones I love.. ha =P

Last week, went to help out my friend for some charity work and get the opportunity to hang ard with the young children.. Argh.. making me miss the primary school days. And look at them.. they are so cute... but of course, one or two is those naughty ones, talkative ones, shy ones, smart one.. all sort of pattern...but still so cute.. and Wont mind if I could have more opporunity in future to work with them again~~

Just there's this little gal called Cecilia ... P4 student sooo Cute.. ha.. all of us, just like her so much. =) and those 2 little sweetie pie, Indian and Malay, they are soo Pro in their presentation, u know what? They even bow n greeted the audiences and has que cards in their hand. Very well prepared and won all of our Claps.!!!

Enjoy just some pics~

勇于跨越。。。。。

I used to worry too much and it caused me something important in life,
so, to those who need just someone to encourage you.. Well,
Jiayou!
Really, sometimes you are just sooo near to achieving, dun give up so easily or taken back by fear or lack of confident.. If you do not try, you will not know what will happen and be it good or bad, at least you know u have tried.
Then it will not become an 遗憾！
Ｓｏ，　加油！！！！　

I'm back =)

Harlo!

I have finally completed part of my dream to travel with my parents, as this time round I only did it with mammy and I'm looking forward again for CNY. Might be going KOREA with Mom n Dad. See how..

OK. Update of my 8 days tour in TW. The tour guide, I named him 阿福, is quite an experienced guy and he guided us very joyable as he talked and share many things.

Things varied from History to health to feng shui and accordingly to him, even mentioned that he has added additional itineray for us... And thanks to his company, we could have had the "high-class" lunch at the 85th Floor of TAIPEI 101. Hahaha..

Well well, didnt know that TW is made up of many mountains and hills, and it's really relaxing to see one of the scenery: 风吹沙, really, very very nice!!! Another remarkable thingy is the Kenting bench? It should be very nice but unfortunately, didnt have the chance to go to the bench as we had a rushing journey to go, so when we reach there it's already evening timing, all we could do is just went for the seafood dinner and viewed the bench from FAR (Hotel). The gateway to the bench is not even opened until 9am which was supposed to be our meeting time. =( sob...

but well, enjoyed it with my mammy despite the very last day i kind of "fought" with her. Bad bad me.. hee.. cos we kind of lost our way at the underground of that TAIPEI train station (MRT), and she "suaned" me of my NO sense of direction.. Argh.. angry.. ha.. but anyway, still it's just a small small part then we just ignore and continued my journey. ~ Happy~

I kissed my mom on her cheek when I wished her Happy Mother's Day.. it was a very surprised kiss.. hee.. I faked to wanted to whisper to her and planted the kiss on her instead.. I saw her smiling sweetly.. Whahahaha..

Dum, 被你说中了，if you started your day with the tots of "xian-ness", you'll face lousy day and guess what happened?! Argh... i saw not just 1 but 2 COCKROACHES!!!! Horrible. the first one is SO huge but luckily it went hiding into the carbinet so I could continue brushing my teeth. Thinking, okay fine, I'll just go wash up and ignore the cockroach, but who knows, in the bathroom there's another!!! ~ Cry out loud~ There's no one to save me and I cant afford to go out w/o bathing as I smelled so sweaty!!! Argh.. no choice i can only made a super fast wash (I still need to wash hair) and keep staring at the same spot that very Kroach went into. Sighz... I'm so scared n crying inside me.. sob..

臭dum dum, all ur fault. ha.. =p

okok.me going to make my photos for uploading... Tata =)

Old old memories ... ..

I spent today by clearing up my stuff again, and this time round I've finally made some progress to reorganize some things that I always wanted (though I still have alot pending things not done yet). As I cleared, many memories flashed back my mind from my Primary to Poly days.

How Jupiter/Green comes into my life,
How KLASHCS7 comes about, those guys we used to Bio during schooling hours, the up and downs in Sec. days.....
How I went through the poly days in 2 portions, and of course meeting the "love" of my life, Dum. I just love her so much and so glad to have such a cutie as my Gd friend.

These sweet sweet memories just brighten my days and so glad to have them as my friends =0)

Of course.. there's some other things like those printed receipes and some artcraft stuffs... I realised I've lost those passions that I've always wanted to do/try when I'm younger. It's kind of sad because, I'm like not really making good use of my life and there's actually many things to be done if I could just put in a little effort. My life would/could be more interesting. So slowly, I must pick it up again =0)

I've also cleared the file that I kept all the things with goofy, and it's kind of "refreshing" because seeing those evidents of how used to be together, those things that we've done, words that we said, restaurants that we've visted, things that we have own/bought, just so many memories. How we from 2 strangers to fall in love to get into relationship, from distant to close, how we fall apart eventually. It's really a long process. Some movie/receipts already faded, just like some of the memories, just like our RS(Love), set me thinking that somethings like RS could/would just fade eventually..... =)

Anyway, argh.. still not finished with my organizing my things. I'must get it done by this Year!!! Tt's my target!

Kanbate loh! c( ^ - ^ )v

Today....

Harlo!
Been quite sometime I'm here to Rubbish yeah?
Well well.. today I'm so happy n excited about my trip with Mammy to TW.
Cant wait for it to come.. Cos I'm anticipating for fun, relaxation and of course.. let me have some good time Bio-ing handsome guys! Simply cos I hardly see any in Sg.. Argh... =P

And, ah gal is growing each single day and she just makes my day!
Cute little naughy niece of mine but I just love her more each day!
Waiting for the 1st 姨姨 to be out of her mouth as she doesnt speaks anything more then "Mumm Mumm" or "AMUM". She only knows to EAT! Fatty gal!

Anyway, as promised, I'm here to state 2 things! 1st, praying for Dum to have developments with MR E and dage's yest exam paper to Pass!

May the happiness spread to you and brings you good good luck!
Muackz!

c( ^._____,^)v

我没事啦， 不用担心。。。。 谢谢你的爱！

可能因为经历过所以不希望别人也感同身受那些不愉快的事。
I just felt stucked as I could not make the decision for ONE but just keeps reminding and stressing on the points and things to consider.
So I wrote those Chim Chim note。。。 哈。but I have to admit it's oso kind of my thinking 啦。。 but main emphasize is not myself, u should know =P.

请帮我pray that things will be good for the ONE and hopes ONE can get over it smoothly.. Really, I do not wish to see ONE end up getting hurt!

Let's all reduces hurt and live happily!!
ha..

c( ^ - ^)i 加油咯！

Star inside a papaya

我又学到的。。。 哈。。

男人不合理的霸道可是会让女人生气的，
可因为爱你而有的霸道，
却是会让女人气也气不起来

抱歉让你白费了这么多 .....

歌手：同恩 专辑：做自己 歌名:本来
词:阿怪曲:林松锦

下雨了站在玻璃门里头
并没有总是挂念着我
你带着雨伞来接我
夜晚了只剩老板跟我
像从前你抽着烟皱眉头
不知怎么安抚太任性的我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼爱我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再庇护我
本来不觉得你
特别疼我直到你不再疼我
以后来不及了
手写的留言对象
已经不会是我

停雨了不必再躲雨了
已经过了该打烊的时候
还是不太想走
太晚了只能坐计程车
为什么想念着摩托车
常常会半路熄火的后座
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你放弃爱我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再庇护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了
长长的简讯对象
已经不会是我
走在湿漉漉红砖道上
沿着导盲砖试着假装
的确有点困难
也许我就这样走路回家
反正你不再在乎几点
该几点回到家
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你再也不疼我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再保护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你放弃爱我以后
来不及了
对不起长大太慢
害你遗失了我
抱歉让你白费了这么多

Everything happens for a reason.....

如果早在生我们前知道的话,
一定不会给予我们来到这里的机会.....

所以我应该感谢上天没让以前那么科技发达,
还是遗憾为什么没早点让我知道好让我更加保护自己?

Anyway, I do know that I've nv regretted into this world and no matter what,
I've to live on and move on..... I'm already very very fortunate to be able to live normally,
So I must live hard..... Right?!

Like what Kelly emphasized, Everything happens for a reason... That's what I believe in as well.....

V-Day 2009

Today is V-day and this year I still spent it with the one I love, just that it's not him..... Well, had a enjoyable day with mammy as we went to woodlands ard Noon and went to Lib at evening timing. Mammy busy looking at her books and me, *Grins* watching Korean F4 drama.. hahah.. It's called Boys of Flowers (BOF) and it is still airing in Korean so I've to wait to buy the DVD~ I think Korean's F4 is much better than Jap/Tw version..

Oh.. anyway, the most interesting and happy part for us today was that we were busy keeping lookout for couple/person carrying Flowers, be it single stalk or bouquet, so long as carrying real flowers. I initiated the bet with mom, loser shall pay for dinner, so I voted for only 5 times and Mammy chose 10. In then end, Mammy won over me so easily as within just 1-2 hrs we saw more than 10 =P.
So in total a final count of 28 pple, ha.. to me.. it's always happy to see the facial expression of those gals carrying the flowers as most of them has got the "I've-got-flowers" looks.. hahah. as they know most people would be looking at them. Anyway, Happy 就好!

Happy情人节!!!!!

心甘情愿的付出..... 好甜喔.....

我从一本言情小说上看见的.....

她的客气让他不太高兴。
“这次就算了，以后不准再对我说谢谢或对不起，情人之间没有所谓的道谢和道歉。”　
　
“这个逻辑有点怪。”不是更应该要常怀感恩的心吗？　　

“一点都不怪，心甘情愿为对方付出、为对方着想的话，就不会想要听到谢谢或对不起这种客套的字眼。”

在你心中我只剩下一点点 (此时的感受.....)

一点点 歌手：阿牛(陈庆祥)

在你心中我只剩下一点点
我站在你即将遗忘的边缘
怎么我还不想看清这一切
你早已经不留恋 我不应该再想念

第几个失眠的夜我也没发觉
这房间冷清了一点点
你提分开的那天阳光很刺眼
我并不是无所谓
时间从来没出声 它静静等谁改变
一年之前 差一步或许就有缘

有过幸福我不埋怨
在你心中我只剩下一点点
我站在你即将遗忘的边缘
怎么我还不想看清这一切
你早已经不留恋 我不应该再想念

在我心中你也还剩一点点
藏在我心房里面的最里面
当你已经找到新的甜苦依恋
我会更努力一点 寂寞不被任何人发现

早知今日何必当初。。。。。

人总要到了失了才来珍惜后悔， 可往往一切都会太迟太迟。。。。。
因为感觉走了就很难回来，心痛了也需要很久很长的时间去康复愈合。。。。。
人生就是这样吧。。。。。
情人节要到了。。 有情人呀。。。 要在一起。。。

幸福就是那么简单.....

新的开场.....

对那些疼爱我的人, 我很感谢有你们的爱..... 我会珍惜的!
对那些被我伤害的, 我衷心的道歉..... 我..... 真的不是有心的.....

就在今天.... 从新的开始.....