Up & Down & Down & Up & Up & Down .....

Argh... Do not know how I have past my week, feeling still so aimless in my life.....

Yet to find my Mr Green, yet to leave my current job for something that I really like, yet to ...... alot of things la...

Hmmm. Really, have been saying so long to get the "old" me back, perhaps I forgot that as days go by, I'm could no longer be the old me, as day by day, I'm more complicated and gained one-day-older fact. So, I should not be looking back but forward.. creating a new me? Hmmm...

My sister who saw me on Monday/tue commented that I still looked so gloomy and sad... asked if it was to do with my Him.. Well... Am I? Do i still looked like someone has owed me 1mil dollars (what my mammy always claimed =P) ?? Argh... I wanna smile more u know, I wanna be happy u know? I am/want to be a bright smiley gal u know? What's happening to me????? Seems like I LOST myself sooooo far behind.. this is soooo Not good. I've to work it out!!!

我是怎么了？！

perhaps, even from the photo I took reflected my feelings.... Hmmm....